Suffocated By Your Love….

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I say and say but you do the opposite, then I am expected to clean up the messes you make from not listening;  well, I didn’t apply for a janitor position in your life, nor did I say I would be loyal to stupidity.  I applied for a position that meant growing along side one another, but we are definitely growing in opposite directions. I have always been direct about not opening my arms to people that will suffocate me, yet, you shorten my breath with decisions that are smothering this relationship.  I have to let go because you don’t know what it takes to hold on. I helped you out of one bad situation after the next, and realized, I wasn’t helping you at all. Being your security has given you access to rob me blind. My faith will restore my ability, so I will be able again; but my faith in you has dissolved. I won’t say another thing because acting is the only thing left to do; my silence and distance is my solution!!!!

~AzizBrown~

My Love May Keep Me Single

I have fallen in Love with two women that couldn’t Love me; they Loved how I made them feel. They couldn’t submit to the idea that they had to see through my eyes because I was always looking through theirs. Our hearts beat for one another, but they didn’t want to live the life I was offering, so they live common. I am a single man with special women in my life, which keeps me single because I haven’t found a secure enough woman to handle the fact that these women will continue to be in my life. My Love is loyal and will not waiver for the Love of a stranger. If that stranger wishes to be my bride, they must add to the blessing I already have. It may lead to a single life, but I will die for my devotion and dedication. So, whoever has my Love, will be promised the same level of commitment….

~AzizBrown~

Happy Father’s Day

Happy Father’s Day

I know sometimes we feel over looked and under appreciated because our counterparts actually go through the pain, labor, and child birth, but sidekicks need Love too. We coached them, ran to the store at weird hours of the night/morning, and rubbed their feet (even when we hate feet). We are the support, the reasoning, and the deep voices to break up the tantrums….We are present, willing, and able to put our lives on the lines. We are fathers; and today we don’t pat ourselves on the back for being fathers because it’s our pleasure. We pat ourselves on the back for never losing sight of what’s important, watching our children grow, and being apart of every inch of that growth. Happy Father’s Day to all Father’s that show up daily….
~AzizBrown~

My Love is Loyal

My Love is Loyal

I have fallen in Love with two women that couldn’t Love me; they Loved how I made them feel. They couldn’t submit to the idea that they had to see through my eyes because I was always looking through theirs. Our hearts beat for one another, but they didn’t want to live the life I was offering, so they live common. I am a single man with special women in my life, which keeps me single because I haven’t found a secure enough woman to handle the fact that these women will continue to be in my life. My Love is loyal and will not waiver for the Love of a stranger. If that stranger wishes to be my bride, they must add to the blessing I already have. It may lead to a single life, but I will die for my devotion and dedication. So, whoever has my Love, will be promised the same level of commitment….

~AzizBrown~

Compromise is the Engine

Compromise is the Engine

Let me give you an analogy: The concept of relationships.

A man and woman want to go out to eat, but they both want different foods. They must find a common ground because the most important thing is eating together. They decided they would either find a restaurant that serves both dishes or a restaurant that serves something they both can enjoy.

They took the time to come to a common ground. They could have agreed to disagree and end up in separate restaurants, defeating the purpose. They ate together and at the same time maintained equality, keeping them both satisfied with their decision. That’s a healthy relationship; working toward a fitting solution to benefit both parties while accomplishing the ultimate goal of staying together!!!!

~AzizBrown~

Together We’re Better

Together We’re Better

A couple is two, but as one they become a unit. They take the risk of merging two powers with the hope it would be electric. The sparks fly and they must be controlled enough to light up a home, which would house a family, and invite friends. A couple will actually bring more than two together because the multiplication will add up, to something that can only be subtracted if they allow division to keep them from being equals….

~AzizBrown~

Relationships aren’t About “Your” Voice….

Relationships aren’t About “Your” Voice….

Lady, I see you, if I see me, who will work for WE. We became WE, to communicate as one, but you want a voice. What do you want to say? My ears are open, I hear you. Does what you have to say speak for both of us? I am trying to lead, I am trying to put us both in a position to succeed. Sit down, take a step back, have you ever listened? or do you just want to be heard? Why do you believe your voice is drowning in this relationship?  I thought we were swimming in the same direction or at least holding on to one another doggy paddling for our survival. Speak, your tears aren’t conveying the problem, I need words. Speak, I can’t read your mind, I need your lips to move.

Baby, I see you, I know you see me, and I want to continue to work toward We. I want us to continue to be an us, but every time we communicate, I don’t feel like we are ONE. I hear your reasoning, but it doesn’t always sit right with me, though it sounds right. I want your heart not just your ears. This isn’t a business arrangement, it’s two people working as partners. I need to feel you in this relationship! You’re excellent at speaking for the both of us and leading in the community, yet when it’s just us; where is your voice? Sit down, take a step back. Are we both succeeding in being present when we are one on one? Or Are you always outside these walls looking for success? I always listen to your words, but I want to hear your heart. My voice is all that is keeping us from becoming roommates. So yes, I want to be heard. To answer your question, yes, we are drowning, and no, I’m not swimming in a different direction, but I don’t want to Doggy paddle to survive. I want to swim to live.

My wife, I hear you, you make a valid point, I am preparing us for survival. I am assuring we continue to have a roof over our heads, food on the table, and have a clear path to our apartment.

My husband, I hear you, you are excellent at providing but why have a roof over our heads, food, and a clear path to misery. My job is to make sure the home has the warmth of two active hearts beating in sync.

Your right, I do need to hug you more, kiss you more, and show my heart more often.

And your right, I need to put myself  in your shoes, see through your eyes, and listen to your words more intently.

But, let’s start with promising to communicate as soon as we see a problem, and be more receptive to the person communicating that problem….Let’s swim towards solutions, and our destination will be happiness, and together we will have a voice!