Your warm body was in my arms for nights that would make the moon jealous. The sun has shined from the heaven’s, the day I kissed your mouth, our tongues tied to the point that it unraveled the words “I Love you”. Our heart shattered and pieces of others remains were placed to reconstruct, two more effective, and sound heartbeats. We were born to give birth to a kind of Love that earth has only dreamt of. We have become the model for every couple looking for the blue print, just because we allowed ourselves to let go, and trust the other with our lives. A faith was created and we were giving the greatest gift by our creator; two truly becoming one….
I can picture him holding your soft skin in his hands. I remember when it was me, running my hand through your hair, but now it’s him separating your hair from his hands. I looked your way and you can look me straight in the eyes and smile. Yet, my head drops in pain when our pupils connect. You have taught me the pain Love brings. Every time the phone rings, my heart dials yours. There seems to be no answer for moving on. I can’t push you out of my mind, you were my gold mine. I want to hate your man, but I know how easy it is to Love you. Guess, I am not suppose to get over you because when I was under you, I acted like I was above you, and now I am beneath these covers; paralyzed from losing you. Thought it couldn’t happen and now that it has I don’t know what happen….
My eyes hit the floor because I thought this beauty was too beautiful to see eye to eye with. For that moment my confidence swayed. I look back up and she looked at me and smiled. I smiled back and said “morning”. She replied, “Good morning, what a beautiful day”. I said “this day is beautiful, it never hurts that we also encounter beautiful people throughout the day”. She chuckled and said, “that’s always a plus”. I added, “we waste so much time anticipating them being subtracted, that we don’t attempt to add them. I went on, ” I almost avoided saying something to you because I automatically thought you wouldn’t be receptive, but I was wrong. She said, “I get that a lot, like an attractive woman can’t be down to earth”. “Yes, it’s ignorance on my part” I responded with the look of shame plastered on my face. “Well, this is my stop” she said. “Okay, it was nice talking to you” I replied. She said, “Until we meet again”! “Yes, until then”, I said. As the doors closed behind her, her last remark opened a door. I can’t wait until next time….
Her skin softened in my hands, it touched my ego. We would go all night, waking up in the morning just to let go. The dreams we had under the moon wasn’t reality once we woke up to the sun. She would get dress and return back to the life that she claimed was lifeless. Yet, she continued returning home instead of staying in mine. The chase would bore in theory but as soon as her eyes captured mine. I was caught up again in her empty promises. My heart will race, she would win, and i would go ahead in head first. I never took a second to stop and think, the day will come, and I would just be another knight; trying to convince a Queen, that I can one day be the king, her king could never be. Then, I realized I wasn’t royalty, I was just another man in armor, attempting to protect a damsel in distress which never was stress. She only wanted a side to go with her entree. But, I wanted to be the meat. So, I stopped giving her my sword and found my own kingdom with a queen that was willing to give me everything. And, I never looked back….
My blood boils to a steam everytime we argue. You push my passion button to its limit. Must I curse you out to gain your silence, listen to me. Over talking me doesn’t accomplish the results we both intend to reach, peace. Please, my veins are protruding out my neck, my stress level is forming a headache. Is your intentions to kill me? Because every single time I breathe, you suck the air right out of me. Trust, your best intentions are my intentions. Trust, if you open your ears, your mouth wouldn’t be so dry. I Love you, you bring a beast out of me, that I’d rather trap. “SHUT THE FUCK UP, I AM DRIVING”! “See, the store right in front of us. I was going the right way.” “Now, say sorry”….
Focused on the curves in your spine, over the emptiness in your heart. Watching your nice lips over the words leaving them. Yet, I blame you for the pain, when you told me you were insane. I thought I was different because all I wanted us to be was the same. I wished for more, nonetheless you weren’t well. You said “I am not ready for Love”, but I gave you a hug believing my heart will pump Love into you. Yet, I blame you. I made excuses for your actions because I didn’t want to take action. I pushed Love ones away for judging you, never seeing I was a prisoner. You never lied about being a virus, but I thought I can nurse you to health. I blame you, for the numbness in my days. The unbearable aching at night. I gave years to someone that only wanted to be a moment. Yet, I blame you, when it was me. You were honest, I just lied to myself. I blame myself and now I am ready to heal….
The lady on the dance floor is beautiful. She’s twirling around the room with such grace. My attention has been spanned, my interest is at its peaked, I am lusting to fall in Love with her. My sight was first but my heart caught up. Her movement has moved me to the point that I am picturing us dancing forever. Our songs are many and the rhythm will be based on the mood. I can’t place my eyes anywhere else, I have found a home. She danced into my life and I just want to match her step for step….