Shopping For My Bride….

Shopping For My Bride….

​I was shopping for an engagement ring, when i met my bride. She caught my eyes but I was attracted to her teeth and the smile attached to them. She approached me and said “can I help you.” I asked her what ring would she recommend. She pointed to the princess quad-cut diamond with pink outlining surrounding every diamond. It was beautiful. I said “the woman wearing this rings is just your size, can you try it on”. She looked at her manager. He gave her a quick head nod of approval. She put out her hand, I slipped it on her finger, turned to my future brother in-law, and said, “this would fit my sister perfectly”. I turned back around, watched my future bride take a deep breath (relieved I was single), she stared, I stared, and forever was made….

~AzizBrown~

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Slept Apart….

Slept Apart….

​The war comes day after day and peace has no sight. Eye to eye is blinded by the fact that we both want to talk and no one wants to listen. I walked in our home today wanting to solve this problem, but the words that left my lips weren’t right. I started off blaming you, your defenses blocked your ears, and your mouth offensively started to offend me. My head started to ache and I shut down, forgetting I ever wanted to make amends. I went into our bedroom; grabbed a pillow, blanket, and went straight to the couch. You stormed passed me with rain pouring out your eyes and slammed the bedroom door. We slept apart another night, mourning the beautiful relationship we once were….

~AzizBrown~

Head Straight….

Head Straight….

​Her eyes folded but he encouraged her to look straight. He explained, “Your chin should never touch your chest, you should always keep your eyes on the prize.” Those words opened her mind to possibilities that were so impossible moments before. She told him, “I Love you and you are always pushing me in the right direction.” He responded, “I am pushing us in the right direction because we are rooted together so we must grow as one.” She just stared at him with the sun reflecting off her eyes. Realizing what keeps her alive, she kisses him on the mouth, and she never looked down again. She moved forward in her bliss….

~AzizBrown~

Great News isn’t Great for everyone….

Great News isn’t Great for everyone….

​The announcement I have been waiting for came through a phone call, in the middle of a conversation well off topic. She told me, “We are going to be parents”. I smiled because the news was great and because I told her she was pregnant. I was right and it was right. I said, “Congratulations”! She said “Congratulations to you”, thrown off by me congratulating her for something we both wanted. But, she should know her personnel. I was gloating, because she finally caught up to what I have predicted. She said, “See you when you get home”. I said, ” Yes, Yes, see you soon”. I got off the phone smiling and shared the news with my friend. She smiled and said “that’s great” but fought back tears of disappointment. She wanted me to enjoy the moment but her feelings for me couldn’t be hidden. I mean, I was having a baby with my best friend which can easily turn into a marriage. So, she thinks. She could be right, but right now I am single and choosing to have a baby with someone I know would be a Great Mother, and help me raise a great child to adulthood. My single status will go where my heart takes it. I asked her to express her true feelings, she refused because she felt bad that she felt something as great has having a child would hurt our closeness. I told her, ” That’s a normal feeling, the mixed emotions of support and the fear of being placed in a bystander role.” I added, ” I Love you and want you to be a part of every great moment but it’s always okay to be raw about your feelings, that’s why it is a relationship.” She looked at me with tears running down her cheeks and said “I am a horrible person because I don’t want to make this great moment about me”. I replied, “This moment is about us, good or bad.” She walked out the door. Refusing to listen to my heart and understanding. Everything she didn’t want to do she did by not taking the time to express herself. I left with the great news of parenthood and the sadness of someone I Love’s pain. It was bittersweet….

~AzizBrown~

We Flatlined….

We Flatlined….

​This relationship is going in circles. We speak and the actions continue to not match the solutions, we agreed upon. I Love you, but I can’t continue to stand in place, when the place I stand isn’t making me happy. I signed up to a marriage that promised we would work as one, yet we are two walking in opposite directions. You have tuned me out and I feel like I am begging for an affection that should come naturally. Last time we spoke, tears fell from my eyes. You looked at me as if it was a weakness, but it was clarity in my strength. I am finished. I am done speaking and without communication we can’t relate. So, this relationship no longer has a heartbeat. We flatlined….

~AzizBrown~

Sex Gives Birth To Love….

Sex Gives Birth To Love….

​You put each of my fingers in between yours and pulled me closer to your backside. I felt your heart beating on mine and it aroused my imagination. I kissed the back of your neck, just to watch you smile but instead you laughed in excitement. You turned to feel my lips on yours, I met you halfway, and you sparked a passion in me that started a fire. I rose, you moistened, and we became one. Pumping affection, I exploded. Being so effective, you imploded. We created life, gave birth to Love, and strengthened our Union….

~AzizBrown~