My Eyes Were Closed….

My Eyes Were Closed….

My eyes closed! I dreamt of a light kiss on my cheek. I felt your breath against my skin, you spoke. Starting with “I Love you”, ending with “I Love being in your arms”. I woke up to emptiness. Nobody their to kiss or hold me, just a dream that I was Loved. The protection I felt while fantasizing, felt so comforting and real. It had to be real at some point. You had to truly feel what you expressed in your body language but it was all false. You had me sleeping wide awake, dreaming a reality that you steal in an instant. My eyes opened and I finally saw you. You only held and kissed me because you would be held and kissed in return. You never did it for my happiness but it felt so real….

~AzizBrown~

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It’s Not Just Your Skin That Gives You Comfort….

It’s Not Just Your Skin That Gives You Comfort….

Can you truly be comfortable in your skin if the people around you aren’t comfortable in theirs? I am a confident, strong willed, empathetic, and optimistic man. I walk through the earth with a belief that God is always on my side. I surrendered to the faith “what can’t be solved by one, can only be solved by many.” Yet, peace of mind seems to escape those around me! “Surrender” sounds too weak of a term for them to grasp. They don’t see the power in seeing beyond the word long enough to make sense out of the sentence it has been inserted in. They fail to understand a word used in at right context serves a greater purpose. Maybe, they don’t wish to serve because they are too busy connecting the word “Serve” to “Servant”. They don’t see when I say “surrender” it’s to the idea that we are greater as like minds than one mind. When I say “serve” i am saying use your strengths to build a stronger society which can start the discussion toward a stronger world. How can I truly have comfort in my skin when I know I can’t improve this land without others being comfortable in theirs….

~AzizBrown~

She Smiled at Me….

She Smiled at Me….

She smiled at me from across the room. Was she being polite or was this an invite? I smiled back hoping it was an invitation to get to know her. The meeting ended. I fumbled around with the hand outs hoping she would stop. She walked out the room, my tactic didn’t work. I finally got all my papers in order and started for the door. As I was leaving she was on her way back in. She forgot her pen at the same time I couldn’t get my papers together. I said ” Oh, did you for get something? Would you want me to help you find it”. She said, “No, it is right here but you can wait for me if you would like.” Her tactic worked a lot better then mine. When she walked out the first time, i thought I lost my chance, but when she walked back in I wasn’t going to waste a second chance. She planned it so masterfully. Or maybe she  walked out thinking she missed her chance and walked back in to get a second one. Either way, I waited at the door, holding it open the hold time, glancing over never seeing a pen on the table, but one appeared in her hand as she started toward the door. She walked out and ask me if I was coming. She caught me looking at her butt, but she acted as if she never saw it. I closed the door and we started down the hallway getting to know each other better….

~AzizBrown~

The Moon’s Reflection….

The Moon’s Reflection….

A wave splashed on shore dragging shells into the ocean. We sat covered in sand watching the moon’s reflection off the clearest water we both have ever seen. It was like a scene from our favorite movies. It was amazing! Witnessing what the woman and man holding on to their relationship has never.  That spark between two people where they recognized it will take more than the emotion to maintain the flame. Our faith was realized in a reality which was painted as a dream until we experienced its truth. We laid back in the sand intoxicated by the moment that started every other moment after it….

~AzizBrown~

When It’s Right….

When It’s Right….

Her hand started out extending for a hand shake. I shook her hand, looked into her eyes, and smiled. She gave me eye contact but looked away with a large grin on her face. We knew the connection had life. We saw one another the next day and she extended again. I said ” I am not a fan of giving women hand shakes especially women I would rather hug.” She rolled her eyes yet extended her arms. She was letting me know it wasn’t going to be easy but she felt the same. We hugged! She pulled away faster than I would have wanted her to but it was a start. We passed each other in the halls several times, each time we showed interest with our eyes and teeth. There was no way to hide the attraction closing the gap between us. That hug wasn’t the last….

~AzizBrown~

Answer Me????

Betty woke up everyday wishing Tom would stop drinking and cheating. She believed she was being loyal by dedicating everything she had to allow her marriage to function. At least that is how Betty was raised. Her mother stayed, raised three children, and her father was barely present. When he was home they would argue about other women calling, him not spending enough time home, and he would threaten to leave. Her mother would turn around and beg him not to leave. Betty thought the world of her father because when he interacted with her he was such a sweet and Loving man, but that interaction would only occur sparingly. Now, Betty is nursing her own marriage, holding on to the good times. I mean, she married him for a reason. He has a great heart, wasn’t afraid to commit to her, and made her feel special before the drinking, cheating, and anger. How could she turn her back when she gave her word?

~AzizBrown~

I Am Wake….

I Am Wake….

Who else is tired of giving your all and being told you’re gullible for trusting your heart? Who else laughs when you see people protecting their heart from Love? Well, I am tired and I have laughed because I see “the gullible” being the people that believe they are living being scared of falling in the faith of Love. I laugh not because I enjoy them missing out on “a taste of heaven” but because I wish they can feel how great it feels to give your heart to someone that actually deserves it’s loyalty. I laugh because the feeling is so great it tickles my insides and I want them to understand how foolish they are to live through past pain which has nothing to do with Love but someone taking Love for granted. It’s God’s plan to teach a lesson preparing us for our destiny of a true forever. I have had the intense pain of heartbreak. I wasn’t broken from that pain because my purpose is to chase my matching heartbeat. It was to see eye to eye with someone that can lock eyes and connect with my pupils rhythm for rhythm. So they can continue to sleep and I will continue to laugh because I am wide awake….

~AzizBrown~