Perfection Forfeited….

Perfection Forfeited….

It is hard to face the pain in your face because I hold you after another man has crushed your spirit. God has anointed me your savior though I can never savor having you in your purest form. Our hearts would have been the perfect shape to fit one another’s in that state but you chose him. Now, I will pick up your pieces and place you back together, knowing I will not be the man cuddled up with you at the end. My heart brokes with this truth, yet I accept my responsibility, just because I am gifted with the ability of making people whole again. My happiness must ultimately come from hoping the next man cherishes you like his church because my Faith in Love will allow me to watch your smile from a distance. With that said, let’s get started building you back up stronger….

~AzizBrown~

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I hugged you….

I hugged you….

She walks over to me, eyes drowned in tears. She couldn’t speak, so it would take a while before I understood what caused her this much pain. I opened my arms and hugged her until she was able to speak. Her comfort was the only thing in my heart. I pulled her away from my chest, looked her in the eyes, as I wiped her tears. I asked, “what happened”? She said “I am so sorry”. “For what”, I said. She went on to express how she cheated on me the night before. My eye sight begins to blur and I am speechless. I have just hugged a enemy of my heart. I used my Love to heal someone that just wounded me. I asked her to repeat what she said. She repeats “Last night I cheated on you”. I looked at her and said, “You knew this and allowed me to hug you”! She drops her head and says “Because I needed a hug”. At that moment I knew she will always put her wants above my needs. I turned and walked away. My voice was hoarse and heart lost it’s beat….

~AzizBrown~

A Father To Be….

A Father To Be….

The journey of creating a life has allowed me to sleep a peaceful sleep. Knowing I already have the Love to be the father I need to be, strengthens my FAITH. Knowing I have housed my LEGACY in a woman I can fully trust with my son’s heart beats, allows me to rest comfortably. I know the world can be cruel and unjust, yet I decided to create because I believe this world can still be just and Loving. I believe we as people control this nation. So, I place my hand on her belly every night, promising to be the Truth, the whole Truth, and nothing but the Truth, so help me God….

~AzizBrown~

Being A King….

Being A King….

Every king needs a partner to rule by his side, great advisors, and loyal surroundings. He needs to understand that ruling isn’t about power but about fair regulations which govern the land. Being king takes open ears, transparent intentions, and principles that punish when crossed but elavate when followed. Being “a king” is about growing the people in your kingdom, assuring they understand Love and happiness is your reason  for sitting on the throne….

~AzizBrown~

From The Root….

From The Root….

We were planted together. Our seeds opened at the same time and we merged at the roots. When we came out the ground, we were already one plant. No one would have been able to tell that we were placed in the ground separately. We met at the foundation of our existence. We let eachother in on our past and discovered we still wanted to work toward a future. We debated until we related! We were unafraid to lose because we knew that was the only way we could win. We had no secrets between us. Starting to intertwine, we found Love. There was no longer a you with me or an I without us. We bloomed as one and everyone else are just able to admire us from the surface because only a few would dig deep enough to understand us from the root….

~AzizBrown~

Break A Leg….

Break A Leg….

You swear your heart has endured more pain because I understand where I went wrong and I am willing to make it right. I have danced with people that stood eye to eye and moved the way I moved, just to watch the curtains close on my partnerships. I thought I will never grace the stage again but I wanted to perform. So, I found another partner and practice to perfect the steps again. You decided to leave the competition because your partner left and you never returned. You stopped dancing and blamed God for losing your passion. Was it truly passion if you allowed man to steal it? Now, I am on the national stage, show casing my Love. I am the standard of how partners should sail together but you envy me because I wouldnt break a leg. Yet, I still believe in you so break a leg….

~AzizBrown~

I Will Try….

I Will Try….

Will you ever have enough? I have given you half my life and all of my Love, yet you are still discontent. All I see is what we can build together but all you see is more. We have four children, created a house in our image, and share a faith in forever. So I thought?! Now, you are coming home later every night. You forgot to pick the children up several times in the last weeks. The new friends you have are opposite of the lifestyle we tailored for each other. Are you bored? I continue to ask questions but the answers never answer my questions. You say you are fine but just a month ago you were all mine. Who would have guessed our Love would be in doubt? Who would have thought you would go this route? Detouring off the path we set in motion as one mind and one heart. Now, the two of us are the two of us and I can’t quite understand the disconnect. I am not ready to let go but if you must go let me know because I am dedicated to what we have built together….

~AzizBrown~