Perfection Forfeited….

Perfection Forfeited….

It is hard to face the pain in your face because I hold you after another man has crushed your spirit. God has anointed me your savior though I can never savor having you in your purest form. Our hearts would have been the perfect shape to fit one another’s in that state but you chose him. Now, I will pick up your pieces and place you back together, knowing I will not be the man cuddled up with you at the end. My heart brokes with this truth, yet I accept my responsibility, just because I am gifted with the ability of making people whole again. My happiness must ultimately come from hoping the next man cherishes you like his church because my Faith in Love will allow me to watch your smile from a distance. With that said, let’s get started building you back up stronger….

~AzizBrown~

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It Can’t Be….

It Can’t Be….

She writes to me. Telling me I am everything she hoped, I would be, when she dreamt of a man beside her. Yet, she goes back to the obligation of a home that she built when she was youthful enough to believe the world was cold. She married the first person that warmed her heart. Now, we have crossed paths and I play the devil which temps her from honoring a committment under God. I never saw myself the villain but now my beat draws me closer to a woman I can’t never trace. We talk about a life where we can be but that life isn’t ours. It’s just a lust we want to Love….

~AzizBrown~

I Am Fatigued….

I Am Fatigued….

I can hear your voice defending your negative actions toward me. I can see that you are inflicting pain on yourself because you don’t truly know how to apologize. This doesn’t make you humble, it makes you selfish. You never Loved me! You Loved how open I was to healing your wounds and my ability to recover as you cut me. I am done with you taking advantage of my healing factor. I am done with the drama of dealing with your anger. You don’t know what Love takes so therefore you can’t give it. I won’t complain no longer, I am taking action. Bye!!!!

~AzizBrown~

Is Confidence a Sin????

Is Confidence a Sin????

A woman told me she didn’t talk to me bacause “I Look like I know I Look good”
I said “Why wouldn’t you want a man that knows his value?” I added “Do you think I Look Good” 
She said, “Yes”
So I said, “So, I have to wait for you to tell me I look good to acknowledge that about myself!”
She said “No”
“Well, you almost didn’t talk to me because you thought I knew about myself, what you ultimately thought about me”
She just laughed and said, “Plus you just confirmed my other thought, that you are a smart ass” 
I wasn’t going to debate that….

Let Me In….

Let Me In….

I can feel the creases in your eyes, I can sense the anger in your tone. You’re upset! Why are you acting like you aren’t? Do you believe you are weak because you’re vulnerable enough to display emotion or is it because you don’t want to care? You Love me and I you, a part of that Love means allowing yourself to express actual emotions. I have the power to hurt your heart in the worse way because I have the power to give you happiness. It’s physics. The higher in the sky the greater the impact of the fall, but don’t fear flying because you think we will die. Trust me, I built a castle in the sky and it’s built for two. So fly, be vulnerable, and lets live in the sky together. 
Let’s talk about what is on your mind….
~AzizBrown~

Point Taken….

Point Taken….

A woman sits her husband down to talk. She is tired of the emotional rollcoaster. She asks him “Are you truly happy with me?” She assures him, “This isn’t a trick question, I will not get angry at your answer, I just want to be clear.” She is so calm. He looks at her with apprehension because he has never saw her this calm. He says ” To be honest sometimes I am, and other times I am not”. She inquires “What makes you unhappy about our relationship?” He says “Honestly, It’s the idea that I can do better. We don’t talk much, I am not always happy coming home, and the sex isn’t always satisfying.” She stares at him and says, “Why have you never expressed this before?” He laughs, “Do you believe you have ever been this easy to talk to before?” She takes a deep breath and says, “So you base your communication on how easy it will be, over the honesty of your convictions. I am lying next to you night after night and you are lying next to me thinking these halfway thoughts”. He puts his head down, looks back up, and says; “Yes, I thought it was normal to keep those thoughts to yourself because they are just thoughts.” She stops him and says, “Yes, they are thoughts but thoughts can rob people of their choices. What if I didnt want to be with a man that has those thoughts? What if I was considering sleeping with another man?” “Matter of fact there is a man at work I have been wondering about for the last month!” He straightens his back in his chair and redness forms in his eyes. “What did you just say?” He said with his teeth grinded and lips tight. She says, “you heard me” sitting back in her chair. She adds, “How does that make you feel?” He says, “Angry, you have been sleeping next to me thinking of another man.” Well, you have been sleeping next to me thinking about this different life. I never really thought of any other man.” His face loosens and he looks puzzled. She continues, “I just wanted you to see how I feel without me being emotionally dramatic”. She has his attention. It isn’t the thoughts, they are normal. It is the lack of communication. We should be talking about everything because everyday we fight to maintain what we built and the threat of our kingdom falling starts with us. He smiles at her and says, “Point taken”….

~AzizBrown~

Open The Lines….

Open The Lines….

Great Communication doesn’t mean stopping a discussion just because you get angry and frustrated. It’s working through that frustration and anger to continue to work toward a solution. Will a couple agree on everything? No! But, they should invest the time to come to a solution that benefits both parties. We should never get tired of problem solving with the person we decided to walk through life with. The sex might start lacking, work to get it back on track. You might think someone at work or in our building is cute. Open up and have that discussion. Attraction is normal but honest Love is a rarity. You might wake up feeling unfulfilled with life. Communicate that to your partner and discuss it to you can find the root of the issue. No discussion should be off limits with the half to your whole. Build a comfortable open line of communication. Fall in Love daily by talking about the great feelings they give you as well. Send a text, pick up the phone, leave work a little early to cook dinner. Be present through the great and bad times. Through great communication Love will have life and a faith will exist between two people….Don’t hold back!!!!

~AzizBrown~