Let Me In….

Let Me In….

I can feel the creases in your eyes, I can sense the anger in your tone. You’re upset! Why are you acting like you aren’t? Do you believe you are weak because you’re vulnerable enough to display emotion or is it because you don’t want to care? You Love me and I you, a part of that Love means allowing yourself to express actual emotions. I have the power to hurt your heart in the worse way because I have the power to give you happiness. It’s physics. The higher in the sky the greater the impact of the fall, but don’t fear flying because you think we will die. Trust me, I built a castle in the sky and it’s built for two. So fly, be vulnerable, and lets live in the sky together. 
Let’s talk about what is on your mind….
~AzizBrown~

Point Taken….

Point Taken….

A woman sits her husband down to talk. She is tired of the emotional rollcoaster. She asks him “Are you truly happy with me?” She assures him, “This isn’t a trick question, I will not get angry at your answer, I just want to be clear.” She is so calm. He looks at her with apprehension because he has never saw her this calm. He says ” To be honest sometimes I am, and other times I am not”. She inquires “What makes you unhappy about our relationship?” He says “Honestly, It’s the idea that I can do better. We don’t talk much, I am not always happy coming home, and the sex isn’t always satisfying.” She stares at him and says, “Why have you never expressed this before?” He laughs, “Do you believe you have ever been this easy to talk to before?” She takes a deep breath and says, “So you base your communication on how easy it will be, over the honesty of your convictions. I am lying next to you night after night and you are lying next to me thinking these halfway thoughts”. He puts his head down, looks back up, and says; “Yes, I thought it was normal to keep those thoughts to yourself because they are just thoughts.” She stops him and says, “Yes, they are thoughts but thoughts can rob people of their choices. What if I didnt want to be with a man that has those thoughts? What if I was considering sleeping with another man?” “Matter of fact there is a man at work I have been wondering about for the last month!” He straightens his back in his chair and redness forms in his eyes. “What did you just say?” He said with his teeth grinded and lips tight. She says, “you heard me” sitting back in her chair. She adds, “How does that make you feel?” He says, “Angry, you have been sleeping next to me thinking of another man.” Well, you have been sleeping next to me thinking about this different life. I never really thought of any other man.” His face loosens and he looks puzzled. She continues, “I just wanted you to see how I feel without me being emotionally dramatic”. She has his attention. It isn’t the thoughts, they are normal. It is the lack of communication. We should be talking about everything because everyday we fight to maintain what we built and the threat of our kingdom falling starts with us. He smiles at her and says, “Point taken”….

~AzizBrown~

Open The Lines….

Open The Lines….

Great Communication doesn’t mean stopping a discussion just because you get angry and frustrated. It’s working through that frustration and anger to continue to work toward a solution. Will a couple agree on everything? No! But, they should invest the time to come to a solution that benefits both parties. We should never get tired of problem solving with the person we decided to walk through life with. The sex might start lacking, work to get it back on track. You might think someone at work or in our building is cute. Open up and have that discussion. Attraction is normal but honest Love is a rarity. You might wake up feeling unfulfilled with life. Communicate that to your partner and discuss it to you can find the root of the issue. No discussion should be off limits with the half to your whole. Build a comfortable open line of communication. Fall in Love daily by talking about the great feelings they give you as well. Send a text, pick up the phone, leave work a little early to cook dinner. Be present through the great and bad times. Through great communication Love will have life and a faith will exist between two people….Don’t hold back!!!!

~AzizBrown~

Condescendent….

Condescendent….

Forgive me, I have overwhelmed you with my faith. I have asked you to believe in “Love” when you aren’t ready. Excuse me for asking you to let go of the bitterness that keeps you company. I should have never asked you to find happiness. I should hate you the way you hate yourself but I only know how to Love. I apologize for causing you to smile when you wanted to frown. I am sorry for hugging you long enough for you to feel joy. I didn’t mean to make you mad. I should have left you alone when you were feeling lonely. I shouldn’t have given you hope. Forgive me, My words are untrue. I meant to introduce you to “Love”. I wished for my faith to be yours. My Apologies are empty because I would do it all again. Because I Love you….

~AzizBrown~

She Smiled at Me….

She Smiled at Me….

She smiled at me from across the room. Was she being polite or was this an invite? I smiled back hoping it was an invitation to get to know her. The meeting ended. I fumbled around with the hand outs hoping she would stop. She walked out the room, my tactic didn’t work. I finally got all my papers in order and started for the door. As I was leaving she was on her way back in. She forgot her pen at the same time I couldn’t get my papers together. I said ” Oh, did you for get something? Would you want me to help you find it”. She said, “No, it is right here but you can wait for me if you would like.” Her tactic worked a lot better then mine. When she walked out the first time, i thought I lost my chance, but when she walked back in I wasn’t going to waste a second chance. She planned it so masterfully. Or maybe she  walked out thinking she missed her chance and walked back in to get a second one. Either way, I waited at the door, holding it open the hold time, glancing over never seeing a pen on the table, but one appeared in her hand as she started toward the door. She walked out and ask me if I was coming. She caught me looking at her butt, but she acted as if she never saw it. I closed the door and we started down the hallway getting to know each other better….

~AzizBrown~

A Relationship is a Miracle….

A Relationship is a Miracle….

The mind has layers which give us levels to our personalities, and with all those levels we are expected to find people that can understand and accept all we bring. A Relationship is a miracle! I am not just talking about coexisting or creating a companionship. I am talking about building a relationship where there is joy in the maintenance of relating. I mean, having another person that will truly capture your essence and you theirs. I mean, having a team that agrees to build for a lifetime and stay focused on task with a loyalty and dedication that is unmatched. I am not talking about biting your tongue not to say anything offensive. I am talking about saying everything that comes to mind and having meaningful discussions to get pass the pain and hurt of contrasting views. I am talking about always believing with great and clear communication that being on the same page is always obtainable. It will never be about accepting the wrong in someone, it’s about inspiring what’s right through a bond of freedom, openness, adjustment, and growth. Who wants to just be cool, when they can work on a friendship or partnership that gives life purpose????

~AzizBrown~

Don’t Tolerate Me….

Don’t Tolerate Me….

I realized at a young age that I didn’t want to be tolerated. I wanted to surround myself around those that Love being in my presence. Those that share life with me because they want to build a life with me. Not those that steal the breaths from my mouth because they are hungry and needed to eat. I realized I wanted to be genuine which meant telling my truths until someone proved them to be false. It meant, hugging fewer because I wanted hugs that reciprocate the passion I put into mine. I knew, I wanted to feel life not always over thinking it but at the same time I wanted  people around me which thought life had feeling. I want  vulnerable relationships that have no limits yet are driven by great principles that connect us through a bond which is limited to Love. I don’t want hate to even have a home in relation between us. I realized young that I didn’t want to be tolerated because Love isn’t an obligation it’s a passion to merge….

~AzizBrown~