I Am At Peace….

I smile to breathe knowing death can steal my will to live. I open my eyes realizing for years of my life I was sleep. I put my hands on humans until they were family, blood surfacing from their skin, believing we were related. Now, my heart pumps true Love only keeping those close that don’t use my rage to measure my commitment. I walk the streets, a basketball limping man, fatigued from all the missed shots taken at me. I am ready to crossover. My salvation wasn’t religion, it was surrendering to God. Having faith that my might won’t come from the fight but the peace of knowing I found the perfect pieces….

~AzizBrown~

Passing Interest….

We approach opposite sides of the corner at the same time. Both looking at our phones waiting for the light to change, so we can alternate sides of the sidewalk. The light changes, we raise our heads, and our eyes meet. We both look away, killing the perception of being over zealous. Yet, we both feel the other isn’t interested because we didnt allow our eyes to stay connected long enough to solidify that interest. As we pass, I look back, our eyes meet again. The mutual interest was there but we decided to settle for “until we meet again”….

Authored By Aziz Brown

I hugged you….

I hugged you….

She walks over to me, eyes drowned in tears. She couldn’t speak, so it would take a while before I understood what caused her this much pain. I opened my arms and hugged her until she was able to speak. Her comfort was the only thing in my heart. I pulled her away from my chest, looked her in the eyes, as I wiped her tears. I asked, “what happened”? She said “I am so sorry”. “For what”, I said. She went on to express how she cheated on me the night before. My eye sight begins to blur and I am speechless. I have just hugged a enemy of my heart. I used my Love to heal someone that just wounded me. I asked her to repeat what she said. She repeats “Last night I cheated on you”. I looked at her and said, “You knew this and allowed me to hug you”! She drops her head and says “Because I needed a hug”. At that moment I knew she will always put her wants above my needs. I turned and walked away. My voice was hoarse and heart lost it’s beat….

~AzizBrown~

I Will Try….

I Will Try….

Will you ever have enough? I have given you half my life and all of my Love, yet you are still discontent. All I see is what we can build together but all you see is more. We have four children, created a house in our image, and share a faith in forever. So I thought?! Now, you are coming home later every night. You forgot to pick the children up several times in the last weeks. The new friends you have are opposite of the lifestyle we tailored for each other. Are you bored? I continue to ask questions but the answers never answer my questions. You say you are fine but just a month ago you were all mine. Who would have guessed our Love would be in doubt? Who would have thought you would go this route? Detouring off the path we set in motion as one mind and one heart. Now, the two of us are the two of us and I can’t quite understand the disconnect. I am not ready to let go but if you must go let me know because I am dedicated to what we have built together….

~AzizBrown~

Catch Me If You Can….

Catch Me If You Can….

Catch me if you can! Why am I chasing you again?  The success of a relationship takes us running toward one another. It also takes us running with each other. I am not the guy for you if I have to be fatigue to prove that I am worthy of you. Wouldn’t that only breed resentment? I know, your mother told you any man that really Loves you would work for your Love and your parents are still together. I bet your father has either cheated on your mother multiple times and she spend majority of her life chasing him. Or your father has never been respected by your mother and she is only still with him because she hasn’t found someone that she can respect that actually wants to marry her. Either way, that old fashion way of thinking would have history repeating itself. And Looking at the way you just frowned when I made that statement, shows me you don’t want to be your mother or marry a man like your father. So, let’s start over my name is Aziz and I will only date you if you are willing to meet me halfway in this relationship….

~AzizBrown~

When It’s Right….

When It’s Right….

Her hand started out extending for a hand shake. I shook her hand, looked into her eyes, and smiled. She gave me eye contact but looked away with a large grin on her face. We knew the connection had life. We saw one another the next day and she extended again. I said ” I am not a fan of giving women hand shakes especially women I would rather hug.” She rolled her eyes yet extended her arms. She was letting me know it wasn’t going to be easy but she felt the same. We hugged! She pulled away faster than I would have wanted her to but it was a start. We passed each other in the halls several times, each time we showed interest with our eyes and teeth. There was no way to hide the attraction closing the gap between us. That hug wasn’t the last….

~AzizBrown~

I Am Wake….

I Am Wake….

Who else is tired of giving your all and being told you’re gullible for trusting your heart? Who else laughs when you see people protecting their heart from Love? Well, I am tired and I have laughed because I see “the gullible” being the people that believe they are living being scared of falling in the faith of Love. I laugh not because I enjoy them missing out on “a taste of heaven” but because I wish they can feel how great it feels to give your heart to someone that actually deserves it’s loyalty. I laugh because the feeling is so great it tickles my insides and I want them to understand how foolish they are to live through past pain which has nothing to do with Love but someone taking Love for granted. It’s God’s plan to teach a lesson preparing us for our destiny of a true forever. I have had the intense pain of heartbreak. I wasn’t broken from that pain because my purpose is to chase my matching heartbeat. It was to see eye to eye with someone that can lock eyes and connect with my pupils rhythm for rhythm. So they can continue to sleep and I will continue to laugh because I am wide awake….

~AzizBrown~