I Am Not….

I Am Not….

I am not worthy of my eyes closing and dreaming of you because I fear your no’s wide awake. I am not of value because your stare isn’t enough, I want you in my arms cuddled up on the couch. I don’t deserve to breathe because I hold my breath in your presence, taking for granted the time I am wasting. I am not worth your faith because I Love escape when I refuse to take a step. I don’t deserve God because I have devilish thoughts of sexual lust. I am not because we aren’t and I want to be….

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Rude Awakening….

Rude Awakening….

“I Love you”, rolled off her tongue like the crumbs of the muffin, she ate every morning. I digested those words like I would starve without them. Woke up one morning to an empty left side of the bed, this didn’t seem right. I grabbed my phone, called her. One ring and straight to voice mail. I left a message,  “call me when you get this”. I opened up my Facebook to see her status was changed to single. My eyes watered, but I refused to allow a tear to drop. I used anger to subside the pain. I went through her closets, everything was gone. Start on the draws, everything gone. Last night before my eyes closed she said “I Love you” and placed a soft kiss on my lips. I opened my eyes this morning to emptiness. I never saw it coming but it came and went. She made her mark and it would scar me for life….

~AzizBrown~