The rain came before the sun. The umbrella, I placed over my head didn’t prevent me from being drenched. The storm was a message, we really wanted to spend the rest of our lives together. We fought until we spoke the same language. We shared until it became natural. We hugged and kissed until we were pros. We ask hard questions expecting honest answers. We searched for where we related together. We never pretend we didn’t disagree, we expressed it. Sometimes we had to retreat to our corners, other times we stood in the middle of the ring and traded punches. I thought, I was protected by the umbrella over my head but I was drenched. She came from out of nowhere; clear skies, one gray cloud, then the whole world went black. My heart pumped, frustration became a normal emotion, but the greatest Love was somehow being built. She didn’t want my compassion, she wanted my truth. She didn’t shy away from my mind, she just challenged it to open up further. It was raw from the beginning until one day we were cooked. All of our truths on the table, we were ready to dine for a lifetime. Then, the sun came out….
Our eyes, pacing back and forth, four pubils work as two in unison. I see you and you see me. Our lips aren’t moving, yet we are having words. I can smell the familiar scent of your skin. We are so intertwined that I can feel the joy in your smile. We have erased the background of our surrounds. We are we! Our margin are aligned, we are writing the story of us. I am responsible for those crow feet evading your eyes. You are the reason I have happy marks circling my mouth. Your ears remain open to my heart and my heart remains open to your ideas. We have touched one another within using our hands. My shoulders broaden in your presense, I am gifted with the strength to carry your weight. I am blind. I am blessed enough to have someone that can guide me. Doubt has no pulse, hope is breathing. You are forever, the measurement for happiness….
I am holding my breath, giving you time for my words to resignate. Closing my eyes because the pressure of talking someone I Love into being convicted, is giving me a headache. I want to quit! But, my heart is still beating and I don’t want to walk away from an investment I put my soul in. I can hear my bitter friends now, “I told you, you never give anyone all of you”. I refuse to let them or you kill my faith. My mind is race, my heart is breaking, and my faith is dying. Are you sure this is what you want? “Yes, this is what I want”. So, why is it taking you so long to invest your savings? We both said we were all in. Walking through life confident, head straight on my goals. Yet, you cripple me, when you was suppose to make it possible for me to fly. I am waiting, but I want to live. Our relationship is up in the air, we need to be grounded….
I whispered in your ear “I Love you”, your cheek was pressed up against my face. The smell of your happiness, aroused me. My heart beat started the drum, my pores started to water, and I couldnt help but to wrap my arms around your lower back and pull you in closer. You are my life. You enhance my passion to live. I breathe a little deeper, due to smile. Your body heat warmed my soul, not because I am was horny, but because you are home. I pushed you away from me to see you eye to eye. I want you to know a part of my faith is to stay faithful to us. You started to cry, I placed four fingers against your temples, as my thumbs wiped your tears. I leaned in, to suck the tears I missed off you lips. You kissed me passioniately and I returned the passion by wrapping my lips around yours. The moment was perfected in joy. Love wasn’t made, it was explored….
I Love You Aziz
A smile can damage someone’s heart, when it is attached to the intentions of a criminal. A smile can also increase the blood flow of someone’s heart, when is it shared with longterm intentions. We fear the word “Commitment” because we are scared we can’t live up to our words. But we can! We can continue to be honest with ourselves, therefore we can be honest with what we truly have to offer. Stop selling a dream you arent going to spend your life constructed, so you can wake up to it. Stop holding someone’s heart in your speech, when you know your actions can’t maintain your grasp. We need to stop being afraid to show all of us. We should always put our hearts on display because when the beat stops, all that is left is who we did right by…..
Dear Aziz Love Shabazz Brown,
This isn’t the greatest world I gifted you because the reality is, there will be evil people you will encounter. My job is to assure you do not become one of them. Matter of fact, MY PURPOSE is to assure that you give to this world far more than you take from it. That will start with SELF-CONFIDENCE. You will leave our home understanding your value and you will return daily with that same worth. Listen to me, I have built myself to be the type of man you can look up to and I will not stop building you until we are seeing EYE to EYE. I have no plans for your career, partnership, or dreams; but I will instill of FOUNDATION that will allow to KNOW you are capable of anything you wish to accomplish. LOVE will pump through your veins! I will hug and kiss you because affection is a MUST. I will DISCIPLINE you because wrong will need to be corrected to right. I will CHALLENGE you because I will be damned if you aren’t prepared when life does. But most of all, I will have FAITH in you because limiting you isn’t an option. Aziz Love Shabazz Brown you will be provided a VillAGE, so what I can’t someone else can. I look forward to our journey TOGETHER….
I LOVE YOU from your DADDY
As friends we are going to go through raising children together, mourning the losses of our parents, illnesses we can’t prevent, and some financial hardships. Do we really need more strain on our relationships? Communicate freely with your friends about what’s in your heart. Listen to what they have to say because you may know yourself but they see what you can’t. DEDICATE everything you have to building a strong foundation. Be HONEST say the things that need to be said, challenge them to be their best, encourage them when they are at their best, and tell them why you Love them every chance you get. DEVOTE the time. Make sure you make them a priority because a great friend will always make you one. Build something together invest in your friendship, like minds allows seeds to grow. Trust your friends, believe they are in your best interest. It’s okay to argue with them for clarity but never question their intentions. They may be wrong but that doesn’t mean they are trying to wrong you. As friends you must have tough discussions with practice they will come easier. Work at your friendships daily….