The rain came before the sun. The umbrella, I placed over my head didn’t prevent me from being drenched. The storm was a message, we really wanted to spend the rest of our lives together. We fought until we spoke the same language. We shared until it became natural. We hugged and kissed until we were pros. We ask hard questions expecting honest answers. We searched for where we related together. We never pretend we didn’t disagree, we expressed it. Sometimes we had to retreat to our corners, other times we stood in the middle of the ring and traded punches. I thought, I was protected by the umbrella over my head but I was drenched. She came from out of nowhere; clear skies, one gray cloud, then the whole world went black. My heart pumped, frustration became a normal emotion, but the greatest Love was somehow being built. She didn’t want my compassion, she wanted my truth. She didn’t shy away from my mind, she just challenged it to open up further. It was raw from the beginning until one day we were cooked. All of our truths on the table, we were ready to dine for a lifetime. Then, the sun came out….
Our eyes, pacing back and forth, four pubils work as two in unison. I see you and you see me. Our lips aren’t moving, yet we are having words. I can smell the familiar scent of your skin. We are so intertwined that I can feel the joy in your smile. We have erased the background of our surrounds. We are we! Our margin are aligned, we are writing the story of us. I am responsible for those crow feet evading your eyes. You are the reason I have happy marks circling my mouth. Your ears remain open to my heart and my heart remains open to your ideas. We have touched one another within using our hands. My shoulders broaden in your presense, I am gifted with the strength to carry your weight. I am blind. I am blessed enough to have someone that can guide me. Doubt has no pulse, hope is breathing. You are forever, the measurement for happiness….
It is hard to face the pain in your face because I hold you after another man has crushed your spirit. God has anointed me your savior though I can never savor having you in your purest form. Our hearts would have been the perfect shape to fit one another’s in that state but you chose him. Now, I will pick up your pieces and place you back together, knowing I will not be the man cuddled up with you at the end. My heart brokes with this truth, yet I accept my responsibility, just because I am gifted with the ability of making people whole again. My happiness must ultimately come from hoping the next man cherishes you like his church because my Faith in Love will allow me to watch your smile from a distance. With that said, let’s get started building you back up stronger….
As friends we are going to go through raising children together, mourning the losses of our parents, illnesses we can’t prevent, and some financial hardships. Do we really need more strain on our relationships? Communicate freely with your friends about what’s in your heart. Listen to what they have to say because you may know yourself but they see what you can’t. DEDICATE everything you have to building a strong foundation. Be HONEST say the things that need to be said, challenge them to be their best, encourage them when they are at their best, and tell them why you Love them every chance you get. DEVOTE the time. Make sure you make them a priority because a great friend will always make you one. Build something together invest in your friendship, like minds allows seeds to grow. Trust your friends, believe they are in your best interest. It’s okay to argue with them for clarity but never question their intentions. They may be wrong but that doesn’t mean they are trying to wrong you. As friends you must have tough discussions with practice they will come easier. Work at your friendships daily….
I need to hear your song again. I want to hear your soothing voice in my ear, dancing in my head. I miss the words spoken toward our future. Hours of Love making, hearts pounding out of our chest. Your breast pressed against my pecks, eyes rolling to a close, the smell of us coming together, still haunts me. I remember each walk, every last talk, the passion of how we fought. I can’t duplicate that, I can’t duplicate the effortless romance of wanting to suffocate myself in your dimples. The motivation I got from your laughter. You were the one, we were two merged as one. I can feel you rested on my stomach, wanting to feed me because you heard a few growls. Oh how you took care of me, you Loved me with a Love of fantasy. You were fantastic at getting air meaning. Then, God took you and now I breathe for the both of us….I Miss You BaBy!
Our hearts have a timeless warmth, the cold will never freeze. We lie in each other’s arm from night to day, waiting for the day to turn to night once more. Our setting suns have become rising moons, our pupils have starred in that connection. We have been placed on the face of this earth to face this earth together. Our hearts beat strength when they are closer to one another. The hearts aches are soothed in the joy and passion we have for each other. So, we wait for the night to pillow talk our fears and wake up to ignite the fire of conquering everyone of them. Us together will shine regardless, even if we are the only light provided in darkness….
My destiny is to be someone in your existence. It’s to be the air that leaves your lungs, the blood that streams from your heart; the thoughts that race in your mind. I wanna be something; the passion that causes you to wake, the excitement that moves you to walk….I want to run with you. I wanna be in you, not in a sexual orgasmic way, but a sensual forever kind of stay. I wanna be the someone that takes away everything that pains you, yet, the something that will bring you everything. I wanna be something, anything, everything, you!!!!