The rain came before the sun. The umbrella, I placed over my head didn’t prevent me from being drenched. The storm was a message, we really wanted to spend the rest of our lives together. We fought until we spoke the same language. We shared until it became natural. We hugged and kissed until we were pros. We ask hard questions expecting honest answers. We searched for where we related together. We never pretend we didn’t disagree, we expressed it. Sometimes we had to retreat to our corners, other times we stood in the middle of the ring and traded punches. I thought, I was protected by the umbrella over my head but I was drenched. She came from out of nowhere; clear skies, one gray cloud, then the whole world went black. My heart pumped, frustration became a normal emotion, but the greatest Love was somehow being built. She didn’t want my compassion, she wanted my truth. She didn’t shy away from my mind, she just challenged it to open up further. It was raw from the beginning until one day we were cooked. All of our truths on the table, we were ready to dine for a lifetime. Then, the sun came out….
I am holding my breath, giving you time for my words to resignate. Closing my eyes because the pressure of talking someone I Love into being convicted, is giving me a headache. I want to quit! But, my heart is still beating and I don’t want to walk away from an investment I put my soul in. I can hear my bitter friends now, “I told you, you never give anyone all of you”. I refuse to let them or you kill my faith. My mind is race, my heart is breaking, and my faith is dying. Are you sure this is what you want? “Yes, this is what I want”. So, why is it taking you so long to invest your savings? We both said we were all in. Walking through life confident, head straight on my goals. Yet, you cripple me, when you was suppose to make it possible for me to fly. I am waiting, but I want to live. Our relationship is up in the air, we need to be grounded….
Too many of us had Too many sad ending that we are scared to begin again. We preach bitterness as WISDOM and selfishness as SMARTS. Allowing an individual to replace our faith in TOGRTHERNESS with self-Perservation. We must always remember that this life is all about searching for HEAVEN and staying focus on that as our DESTINATION through all the pain. Keep your heart open, believe you learned from the past, and will find better in your future. Maintain LOVE as a FAITH….
Authored By Aziz
A smile can damage someone’s heart, when it is attached to the intentions of a criminal. A smile can also increase the blood flow of someone’s heart, when is it shared with longterm intentions. We fear the word “Commitment” because we are scared we can’t live up to our words. But we can! We can continue to be honest with ourselves, therefore we can be honest with what we truly have to offer. Stop selling a dream you arent going to spend your life constructed, so you can wake up to it. Stop holding someone’s heart in your speech, when you know your actions can’t maintain your grasp. We need to stop being afraid to show all of us. We should always put our hearts on display because when the beat stops, all that is left is who we did right by…..
I can hear your voice defending your negative actions toward me. I can see that you are inflicting pain on yourself because you don’t truly know how to apologize. This doesn’t make you humble, it makes you selfish. You never Loved me! You Loved how open I was to healing your wounds and my ability to recover as you cut me. I am done with you taking advantage of my healing factor. I am done with the drama of dealing with your anger. You don’t know what Love takes so therefore you can’t give it. I won’t complain no longer, I am taking action. Bye!!!!
I kissed your face, feeling your smile from the dimples pressed against my lips. It makes me happy to experience your happiness. If I can enhance your life then we will dance for life. Why are so many bitter? When we can actually spend our days passionate about inspiring passion into the people we Love. Her heart rest against my ear and a deep breath isn’t enough. I forget about all the broken times of past Love and fall asleep in the moment. Why is this the dream? Why is this the feeling people believe will not last? When all of her is enough and all of me is enough for she. I don’t anticipate the pain of the rain, when the rain waters my eyes with joy most can only hope for. She is sweets in this sour existence and I will not allow anyone to throw salt in my found treasure. Yes, I am in Love. Yes, I believe it will last forever. No, no doubt is in my heart because I never offer uncertainty in my word. Two can become one. Many can become few and call ourselves family. I am faithful to my union, unity has united us, and now I place my lips on your face just to smell and taste your soul. I am full….
Can’t wait for you to come home! I have been sitting here watching television thinking about the moment you walk into our home. I miss being cuddled up, kissing your forehead, while we talk about our lives together. You have only been gone for a couple of hours and I thought I was going to enjoy some alone time, but you are on my mind. I have resigned to the fact that my time alone is our time at home. I still enjoy your company after all these years. Just thinking about your smile almost brings me to tears. You have torn this hole in my heart and replaced what has been missing, making my heart whole. I sit here on the couch thinking about you coming home, knowing for sure I will be satisfied in your presence….