I See Her….

I See Her….

I see her. But, she is blinded by yesterday’s pain, unforgiving of herself for allowing failure to be possible. She runs, from all that causes smiles and happiness. Discomfort has new meaning. When hugged, she pictures betrayal. When kissed, she only thinks how the saliva will dry. When Loved, she believes God hates her. Yet, I still see her. Everything I know her heart can be. The hope of a romantic Love that sees us both daring to risk everyone to gain everything. The pain in her eyes can’t blind her forever, and when she can see herself again. I want to be right there waiting….

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Perfection Forfeited….

Perfection Forfeited….

It is hard to face the pain in your face because I hold you after another man has crushed your spirit. God has anointed me your savior though I can never savor having you in your purest form. Our hearts would have been the perfect shape to fit one another’s in that state but you chose him. Now, I will pick up your pieces and place you back together, knowing I will not be the man cuddled up with you at the end. My heart brokes with this truth, yet I accept my responsibility, just because I am gifted with the ability of making people whole again. My happiness must ultimately come from hoping the next man cherishes you like his church because my Faith in Love will allow me to watch your smile from a distance. With that said, let’s get started building you back up stronger….

~AzizBrown~

Worth Every Step….

Worth Every Step….

The walk was long and hard but the Love I have for you is endless. The world couldn’t divide me from my fresher air, stronger heartbeat, and my God given right to merge my soul with yours. I hold your breast on my pecs, cheek to cheek, and our eyes close listening to eachother’s breaths. It’s unbelievable! The embrace moves to holding one another’s hands, eyes open, studying every curve on the other’s face, and we are forced to smile because happiness invades us. Yes, the walk has been long and hard but my feet hurting so my heart can heal is worth every step….

~AzizBrown~

She Smiled at Me….

She Smiled at Me….

She smiled at me from across the room. Was she being polite or was this an invite? I smiled back hoping it was an invitation to get to know her. The meeting ended. I fumbled around with the hand outs hoping she would stop. She walked out the room, my tactic didn’t work. I finally got all my papers in order and started for the door. As I was leaving she was on her way back in. She forgot her pen at the same time I couldn’t get my papers together. I said ” Oh, did you for get something? Would you want me to help you find it”. She said, “No, it is right here but you can wait for me if you would like.” Her tactic worked a lot better then mine. When she walked out the first time, i thought I lost my chance, but when she walked back in I wasn’t going to waste a second chance. She planned it so masterfully. Or maybe she  walked out thinking she missed her chance and walked back in to get a second one. Either way, I waited at the door, holding it open the hold time, glancing over never seeing a pen on the table, but one appeared in her hand as she started toward the door. She walked out and ask me if I was coming. She caught me looking at her butt, but she acted as if she never saw it. I closed the door and we started down the hallway getting to know each other better….

~AzizBrown~

When It’s Right….

When It’s Right….

Her hand started out extending for a hand shake. I shook her hand, looked into her eyes, and smiled. She gave me eye contact but looked away with a large grin on her face. We knew the connection had life. We saw one another the next day and she extended again. I said ” I am not a fan of giving women hand shakes especially women I would rather hug.” She rolled her eyes yet extended her arms. She was letting me know it wasn’t going to be easy but she felt the same. We hugged! She pulled away faster than I would have wanted her to but it was a start. We passed each other in the halls several times, each time we showed interest with our eyes and teeth. There was no way to hide the attraction closing the gap between us. That hug wasn’t the last….

~AzizBrown~

A Relationship is a Miracle….

A Relationship is a Miracle….

The mind has layers which give us levels to our personalities, and with all those levels we are expected to find people that can understand and accept all we bring. A Relationship is a miracle! I am not just talking about coexisting or creating a companionship. I am talking about building a relationship where there is joy in the maintenance of relating. I mean, having another person that will truly capture your essence and you theirs. I mean, having a team that agrees to build for a lifetime and stay focused on task with a loyalty and dedication that is unmatched. I am not talking about biting your tongue not to say anything offensive. I am talking about saying everything that comes to mind and having meaningful discussions to get pass the pain and hurt of contrasting views. I am talking about always believing with great and clear communication that being on the same page is always obtainable. It will never be about accepting the wrong in someone, it’s about inspiring what’s right through a bond of freedom, openness, adjustment, and growth. Who wants to just be cool, when they can work on a friendship or partnership that gives life purpose????

~AzizBrown~

Well I Have!!!!

Well I Have!!!!

I celebrate Life by Loving everyone I Love with my Life. Have you ever been held by someone that never wanted to let go? Well I have! That Love was the start of my faith. It gave me the confidence to go through life never accepting less than that feeling of faith. Yes, I hear the cynics telling me it doesn’t exist but I don’t listen because I witnessed it. When you feel the warmth of the sun, you will never just accept the cool of the moon. My mother held me in her arms and nurtured my mind, body, and soul. My friends have been vulnerable allowing me to see all they are. I have kissed lips that sparked a passion in me that made me want to change the wrong in the world. I have been inspired by other’s heartbeats held against mine. Have you ever witness this? If not trust me it’s real. It not a myth, it does exist. But, you must give all you have to obtain it or you will only keep getting a glimpse….

~AzizBrown~