I Am Not….

I Am Not….

I am not worthy of my eyes closing and dreaming of you because I fear your no’s wide awake. I am not of value because your stare isn’t enough, I want you in my arms cuddled up on the couch. I don’t deserve to breathe because I hold my breath in your presence, taking for granted the time I am wasting. I am not worth your faith because I Love escape when I refuse to take a step. I don’t deserve God because I have devilish thoughts of sexual lust. I am not because we aren’t and I want to be….

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Worth Every Step….

Worth Every Step….

The walk was long and hard but the Love I have for you is endless. The world couldn’t divide me from my fresher air, stronger heartbeat, and my God given right to merge my soul with yours. I hold your breast on my pecs, cheek to cheek, and our eyes close listening to eachother’s breaths. It’s unbelievable! The embrace moves to holding one another’s hands, eyes open, studying every curve on the other’s face, and we are forced to smile because happiness invades us. Yes, the walk has been long and hard but my feet hurting so my heart can heal is worth every step….

~AzizBrown~

Kept In The Shadows….

Kept In The Shadows….

“I Love you!” Yes, the words that came out of my mouth. They also came out of yours but you kept me in the shadows. You were on full display. I was proud to call you a woman I Love. I never realized how private we were until the day I expressed your lack of praise in me. You defended it like you believed it was okay. Matter of fact, you defended it like I was wrong for expecting some public acknowledgement. We spoke, you took a stance, and I took mine. The disconnect was formed. You threw me a bone the next day by wanting to talk. What was there truly to speak about? You were clear that I was to be a closed door person in your life. I understand your position and you understood mine. You ran operations and I made sure the operation ran. Yet, I told you “I am no secret”! You said “You wouldn’t be”. Now, we are here, strangers passing in the wind. Watching one another’s lives from the window. I Love You! Those were the words I said and I showed in my passion to get us on the same page. The fatigue of getting met with resistence has crippled me to walk several times. You would come back stating you were wrong but I knew you was keeping count of how many times you we saying “Sorry” and not how many times you did things to me to be sorry about. It’s cool. It was my choice not to be in this relationship. I surrendered to the fact that I Loved you deeply and now I surrender to the fact that I will never be able to express that Love again….
~AzizBrown~

The Consistency of Your Love….

The Consistency of Your Love….

​I fell in Love with the consistency of your Love. You were always around when I needed you the most and when I thought I didn’t need you;I realized I truly wanted you. Your tears, tear my heart. Your smile is food for my heart. Your pain gives me something to heal. When you are healed, I feel at full strength. You are my motivation to succeed or better yet my motivation not to fail. I think of you with every move I make. It’s okay not to have a mind of my own because I rather be mindful. Two thinking as one will cover more ground, so we will get to our destination without getting lost. I am in Love with you.  There isn’t a doubt that I have surrendered to the idea that my life is fulfilled. 

~AzizBrown~

SELL ME LOVE….

SELL ME LOVE….

​Sell me Love and I will sell you my loyalty. Priceless is unrealistic in this capitalistic society but a cycle of give and take is a faith, I will purchase. Love me with everything you are and I will give you everything I am. I am ready to surrender to Love as my faith and anyone which is faithful to that same faith. Trust me with your back and we can move forward together. Use your honesty to reflect your character and your actions will reflect those words. Sell me Love, I will sell you my loyalty and we will both be buying unity in the process….

~AzizBrown~

Where Are “You”….

Where Are “You”….

​I remember you! The “You” that would do anything and everything to make me smile. The “You” that would cook me my favorite  meal just because you can. The “You” that would iron my clothes just because you didn’t want me to go out wrinkled. The “You” that would push me to dream and never settle for a harsh reality. What happened to “You”? Now it is all a job. You look at me with disgust, wanting me to do everything for myself, you’re not the same. Have I changed? I still wake up with the same pleasure for you. I cook your favorite  meals just to see your joy, text you my heart daily, and look forward to spending quality time with you hugged up in my arms. My passion hasn’t change. Where is the “You”that wants “Us”….

~AzizBrown~

We Are The Example….

We Are The Example….

​Your warm body was in my arms for nights that would make the moon jealous. The sun has shined from the heaven’s, the day I kissed your mouth, our tongues tied to the point that it unraveled the words “I Love you”. Our heart shattered and pieces of others remains were placed to reconstruct, two more effective, and sound heartbeats. We were born to give birth to a kind of Love that earth has only dreamt of. We have become the model for every couple looking for the blue print, just because we allowed ourselves to let go, and trust the other with our lives. A faith was created and we were giving the greatest gift by our creator; two truly becoming one….

~ AzizBrown~