We hugged! I felt her heart on my chest. We kissed! I felt her skin against mine. My brain was erect! I thought of our life in its entirety. We smiled! I could see forever in sight. We walked away! I knew that home was the moment we were together again….
I am holding my breath, giving you time for my words to resignate. Closing my eyes because the pressure of talking someone I Love into being convicted, is giving me a headache. I want to quit! But, my heart is still beating and I don’t want to walk away from an investment I put my soul in. I can hear my bitter friends now, “I told you, you never give anyone all of you”. I refuse to let them or you kill my faith. My mind is race, my heart is breaking, and my faith is dying. Are you sure this is what you want? “Yes, this is what I want”. So, why is it taking you so long to invest your savings? We both said we were all in. Walking through life confident, head straight on my goals. Yet, you cripple me, when you was suppose to make it possible for me to fly. I am waiting, but I want to live. Our relationship is up in the air, we need to be grounded….
I whispered in your ear “I Love you”, your cheek was pressed up against my face. The smell of your happiness, aroused me. My heart beat started the drum, my pores started to water, and I couldnt help but to wrap my arms around your lower back and pull you in closer. You are my life. You enhance my passion to live. I breathe a little deeper, due to smile. Your body heat warmed my soul, not because I am was horny, but because you are home. I pushed you away from me to see you eye to eye. I want you to know a part of my faith is to stay faithful to us. You started to cry, I placed four fingers against your temples, as my thumbs wiped your tears. I leaned in, to suck the tears I missed off you lips. You kissed me passioniately and I returned the passion by wrapping my lips around yours. The moment was perfected in joy. Love wasn’t made, it was explored….
I Love You Aziz
Dear Aziz Love Shabazz Brown,
This isn’t the greatest world I gifted you because the reality is, there will be evil people you will encounter. My job is to assure you do not become one of them. Matter of fact, MY PURPOSE is to assure that you give to this world far more than you take from it. That will start with SELF-CONFIDENCE. You will leave our home understanding your value and you will return daily with that same worth. Listen to me, I have built myself to be the type of man you can look up to and I will not stop building you until we are seeing EYE to EYE. I have no plans for your career, partnership, or dreams; but I will instill of FOUNDATION that will allow to KNOW you are capable of anything you wish to accomplish. LOVE will pump through your veins! I will hug and kiss you because affection is a MUST. I will DISCIPLINE you because wrong will need to be corrected to right. I will CHALLENGE you because I will be damned if you aren’t prepared when life does. But most of all, I will have FAITH in you because limiting you isn’t an option. Aziz Love Shabazz Brown you will be provided a VillAGE, so what I can’t someone else can. I look forward to our journey TOGETHER….
I LOVE YOU from your DADDY
God has a sense of humor! The pleasure of creating a life, doesn’t always measure the pain of bringing that life into this world. I mean, people talk about the greatest trick the devil has ever pulled, is convincing the world he doesn’t exist. Yet, God’s trick to reproduction is a great pleasure before watching our women go through the worse pain imaginable. And us men are just bystanders. We kissed their lips, danced in between their legs, and came together. Just to be yelled at, pushed away, and made to feel like we are being torn apart. But, when that head emerges and the life we created is rested between us; we contemplate doing it all again. At that moment, all we can do is thank God for all the pain because the joy can’t be measured.
My life showed in your pupils. I stared and lost focus of my footsteps. No worries, you guided me back to my path and I walk blindly knowing you will see for me. Our Love grew to a place we just need to maintain. I am home. I am resting in front of a fireplace of our flame. A comfort that allows me to close my eyes, certain I will wake up to a forever that will never betray me. I see my life in your pupils because you are my life…. Author by Aziz Brown
The journey of creating a life has allowed me to sleep a peaceful sleep. Knowing I already have the Love to be the father I need to be, strengthens my FAITH. Knowing I have housed my LEGACY in a woman I can fully trust with my son’s heart beats, allows me to rest comfortably. I know the world can be cruel and unjust, yet I decided to create because I believe this world can still be just and Loving. I believe we as people control this nation. So, I place my hand on her belly every night, promising to be the Truth, the whole Truth, and nothing but the Truth, so help me God….